I've been playing a lot of Overwatch lately. Not "a lot" like kids and students can play, but "a lot" on the scale of a man with a job, hobbies and a family. Today I finally got the feeling that I've played enough for a while, as in almost every single game I've played today I had a thrower or a leaver. I've had some cases like this already before, but this really tired me down.
At this point, I found myself wondering what I should actually do? As lately I haven't been doing any photography due to a disappointing photo session and I lost interest for photography for a moment. I haven't been on Steemit that much as I've been disappointed in myself on posting.
How easy it is to quit when you're disappointed?
You start a new diet - you have high hopes to lose at least 10 kilograms of weight, but instead after a week you haven't lost anything. After two weeks, you've lost 300 grams of weight. You get disappointed and stop the diet - why to continue if it's such a disappointment?
Especially as the diet has made you leave out stuff you enjoy eating.
Your cool friends are going to the gym and you're hoping that you'd have as big arms and legs as they have. Awesome. You get a gym membership and start going to the gym. You might even get a personal trailer to build up a exercise program for you and you go to the gym regularly for two months. Then you compare the results so far to an old photo and well... you're not that much muscular. You can't really see that much of a difference. There are slight changes but...
Do you love going to the gym enough so you'll keep on pushing yourself, even though you're not seeing the results you hope for?
You have bunch of cryptowizard friends who have bought some of the coolest altcoin in the town. You can see the prices are skyrocketing, so you hop aboard and spend 500€ to buy some of the cool crypto. However shortly after your purchase, the price drops. You have seen the price curves of other cryptocurrencies and some drop really rapidly after a fast rise. You decide to make a quick move and sell all you have.
However then the price keeps on climbing up again. You use the money from the panic sale to buy back some of the crypto, hoping to still make some gains. However the prices drop again and you get frustrated. You sell all of the crypto you had and keep the money. You just lost 340€ and it sucks. You're saving what you can instead of waiting to see if it turns OK in the end. Your friends have still made some gains on the long run, but you're disappointed.
An user joins Steemit, hoping to make big gains. She writes an introduction post, posts a few articles, leaves a few comments to other users, joins some Discord servers and the steem.chat just.. to finally notice after a month, that she's still making $0.02 per post. At the same time she sees other posts making loads of money and she's asking herself, why is she doing this? She hasn't even found anything interesting to follow and read, only a few accounts which are popular and a few which are actively upvoting her.
What a disappointment, as there is no joy for her on Steemit.
But what if you don't quit?
I'm not saying world will be better if you don't quit. Not at all. The typical motivational thing is with all the "If you try hard enough, you will succeed!"
Nobody can actually promise you that. You might want and try something really hard and never succeed.
There will always be a lot of people who will never reach their goals. They will never be rich, famous, popular and the best.
But as they say, if you quit you will never know. You will never know if you could have succeeded.
If you truly want it, never quit. Not at least until you've tried with the best you have.
It's a real shame it's so hard to be at your best. I would want to write at my best, do my best, take the best photos possible but it's just so difficult. And the difficulty is usually something nobody else sees, but most still know from their own life.
"Especially as the diet has made you leave out stuff you enjoy eating."
Damn you apsu. I have not eaten normal sweets in 4+(?) weeks. I thought that replacing them with a bit of honey would be a good idea. But even after all this time cravings for ice cream or chocolate still didn't disappear.
About posting. I am more dissapointed not in my payouts. They are slowly growing. Having few more cents is still better than not having those cents and I do not expect to buy a ferrari or yachts any time soon. I am sure that bigger users are working just as as hard or harder than I am. They deserve much more money than they are getting. what really makes me sad is that my blog seems to be dead in comments. Sometimes someone says "this is geat art"I check their comment history and I see that they just made exact same comment to 20+ other people. Perhaps this is entitlement speaking but after spending maybe a few hundreds hours on a piece I hope to spark something in my viewers. I don't expect to be praised all the time. If people dislike something about my works they should still say so. That would be so much better and more genuine.
I seems I made a rant as well. oh well whatever.
Well they do say at one point, you'll be craving the sweets less and less. But honey cannot really replace them. It's not the same at all.
However the good thing is that after a long pause if you eat sweets, you'll start to feel icky quite fast, at least in some cases. In best case scenario, it'll help manage to reduce all kinds of sweets and such on a long run even if you don't quit them in total.
I'm glad your payouts are slowly growing. I'm at a point I'm not taking much stress about payouts, because I'm having a secret hope Steem price will jump to at least $10 and then the current Steem amount owned by me is already quite nice. Well it could always be nicer, but still!
The lack of interaction is however depressing as most know. I'm lucky not to get that much spam comments, but I do really know what you mean with the "this is geat art"-comments. It's not that we're looking for compliments and such but discussion, interactions and something which points out to people that they might care.
Sometimes it really sucks ...my life did not go the way i anted none of it ...and it never seems to get better ...but I am still here ...who knows ...maybe there is a light at the end but truly I no longer really believe there is much good for me ot there ...but I am still here ...I guess I am stubborn ...or insane ...
This sounds serious, even though I don't know what to say in this.
Is there any chance that the story of investing 500€ in cryptocurrency a real story of the author of this post?
I don't have any specific goal or target point to reach here in steemit. I also don't depends on the money I get from here. So I am not under any pressure. I just enjoy staying in a community. Steemit is such a community.
Nope, I wish I had invested that much because I bought EOS at less than $1 and sold around the peak :D
I've invested smaller amount of money and recently bought Steem with a bit over 100€ when the price was really low.
I'm just worried of people who invest money with no knowledge on what they're doing.
Hey, if you need an Overwatch hand I actually have your back. But speaking to your point about giving up, I have to say, I can relate hard. I don't even have a meaningful comment to make. I just know that you cannot succumb, because it doesn't solve anything! You would be nowhere having opted out of every aspiration that met with a setback. You owe it to yourself to see things through.
I can tell you more about my sad story. I have been somewhat high in platinum at best. Then I don't know what happened, but I slowly slided to low-platinum and going between gold-platinum. Now I dropped to 2135 at lowest after a long run of bad games. Some were geniunely lost after a good game, in some games the enemy team had team of super smurfs (4 people team with 3 low level players who were better than players in platinum, maybe carrying the fourth one to better ranks), some games with ragequitters, some with trolls and throwers and one fucking easy victory was ruined because we had a 5 second blackout. When the power went back on and I rejoined the game, the game was basically lost.
I'm glad we're still here. Even though we have the tough times.