I’m not sure about this, but I believe anxiety comes from a lack of strong decisions (sidetracked by misguided expectations). Commitment so to speak.
I know anxiety very well and pondered on it for ages. Always feeling I have to move on. New home, new country, new whatever. As if searching for the place or person will finally be my home.
Now I just came out of a relationship (short but intense) with a narcissistic women. I literally lost every stability in my life. And it took that experience to recognise something essential:
I am here, I’m ok and there is no home other than where I am right now. Now I’ve made decisions with commitment and although things are still at rock bottom, slowly they are turning better.
Probably through the digital age where we just have too many opportunities and the lives of others always seem so fascinating, we tend to always look for something better. New toys, new partners, better sex, sex with multiple people, more money, or more yoga poses … just too much of everything. May it be material, or inner desires. And if we don’t get what we crave for so bitterly we end up being miserable, or finding us in situations, that help us become miserable.
So to me at the moment life is about being here, expecting nothing and living according to my principles (ethics/morals are very important! Being a free individual should not be an excuse to be an asshole). If someone or something comes along; well great! If not – I’ll be fine.
So I believe anxiety comes from expectations that are misguided and take us away from what we are.
Now I don’t know if any of the above makes sense. But I’m drinking tee at the moment, won’t have sex and can’t take a nap, as I have to send out applications for a new job. So just killing a little time :)
It’s great that you chose to live a travelling life. Good luck and take it easy.
PS: If two people meet who are on a constant search, they might just be constantly searching and will never find each other. Alone together so to speak.