Being parents is something we’ve both dreamed of from a very young age. To have a family of our own that we can devote ourselves to.
Growing up without a father has made me passionate about good male role models, and influences in children. I’ve had to learn interaction and communication with men as I just lost all trust, and I’m a man myself!
It’s taken some time, but now I am surrounded by true gents, and inspirational ones too.
My wife & I are on a journey to grow our little family, but no matter how much money, what diet we choose, the medication or wishes to the universe, will make this dream come true.
I’ve been here before, a long time ago. I was in a very dark place and truly felt there was no way out. I’d kneel before bed and pray, blown my birthday candles and wish, look for four leaf clovers. I wasn’t religious, but often found myself entering the cathedral to sit in a corner and send prayers to anyone/anything. I now find myself back in this place out of control and desperate for it to just happen.
I think it makes it harder that we started it feeling so optimistic. I am generally a realist person and don’t like to set myself up for failure but slowly and surely it has worn us down.
We have had 3 failed IUI treatments, and ignorantly we believed because my wife is young and healthy, that it would just happen. It has hit her so much harder as she has physically felt every single loss of that baby that could have been. I find it hard enough to feel the disappointment alone each month.
IUI is different to IVF, its generally less invasive. Our consultant agreed IUI was the best course of action, and whilst we initially didn't want medication it seemed a better option as the cycles could be controlled giving us a batter chance compared to the 'usual' way.
My wife was incredibly brave and having never really had medication or injections before she took it all in her stride.
I have a feeling in my heart that we have a long way to go still, but that we will get there. Wish us luck and I will keep you updated!
