@happycrazycon, that was in 2002. It was strange because being in the position of manager, I felt it was my duty to look out for those around me, so I remained calm and in control even when grabbed out of my chair and thrown to the ground, even when the other gunman (there were 2) accidentally discharged his weapon, even when they'd left the building and the elderly woman who had been at the counter grabbed me in a panic and wouldn't let go while I tried to lock the doors, even as my employee, whom I thought was not injured because she had remained standing lifted her arm to reveal blood dripping down her arm... Turns out the gun had been pointed downward and a small piece of the flooring when shot, burst upward striking her hand. I didn't"feel" anything for weeks. I was like a shell, no tears, no anger, just flashbacks until one day, months later, the floodgates of tears opened and I started to heal. Didn't step foot in a bank for years after that though!
The positive out of this was that I had wanted to leave banking, but couldn't see how to leave the money and position. This gave me the excuse I needed, so I'm actually very grateful for the experience. 😉
Perhaps that's the silver lining in this case. You were very brave as a manager. I too burst into tears and crying out loud after weeks later one night, while I tried to calm the others down right after the incident in the police station so I figured you may have "burst" at one point or another. I guess we had our closure much later but much needed. Thank goodness you are out from there too.
How terrifying to be attacked in your place of worship! Being attacked anywhere is scary, but to have it occur in your place of safety & sanctity is all the more injurious! The only thing I felt at first was anger that my sense of security had been taken. I'm so glad you escaped without physical injury and hope the emotional scars are healing well. 💕