No problem, man! I think it's great that you decided to check out a platform like this and stick with it when you had already carved out a great deal of success for yourself.
I didn't think to consider how negative comments must feel for a long time content creator. And for new content creators it's probably even worse. It can be horrible to read vile comments even when they're not aimed at you, so I'm probably underestimating how destructive those types of comments would be to creators on the Steemit platform, since I've never had to experience that sort of thing directed at me. I guess suspicion directed at positive words gives you a hope that they might be genuine, at least. It's always easy for someone in my position to say they want something, then regret it when they have it.
I really hope you're able to continue finding your place in this platform and, of course, best of luck on your youtube endeavours as well. If I feel I have something interesting to say, I'll be sure to make my presence known on your posts as well!