Feeling you brother ! I know that feeling. I worked in a crappy job at some factory not very long ago. The night shifts are hell on earth but i still tried to do my best and took my job serious. They did let me go for no serious reason after a few months.
I am sorry to hear about your money problems. Try to stay positive even tough i know it's easier said than done in this situation. My upvote dosen't mean much, but i did it anyway. I hope that you will find the power to go trough all of this and i know that you are smart enough to do so. All people on Steem it are special and smart individuals and this community will surely help you more in the future. I followed you, i'm looking forward to your next articles.