I am a very calm flyer. I have flown a lot since childhood and still today. I love airports and airplanes and never really feel fear on them. But the experience you had might change me! I've only had a few small events in my many years of flying and none of them bothered me.
I feel like the situation is not in my control and so I just do not worry about it.
As to music - I would want none. I like to stay it the place I'm at and rarely listen to music at all. And if it is my last moments, I hope I will be there with all my senses.
That is the right way to think. I go through stages . Nervous then got over it then this happened then got over it. Now have a daughter so slightly nervous again . It’s fine though . Like u said. If I’m gonna die I’m gonna die
lol - That's the spirit!