I’m always addicted to something. So I can somewhat understand but not entirely.
I switch caffeine out for water and drink more than a horse. That is at least a positive change.
Instead of gaming for 80+ (maybe it was 100+..) a week I traded that in for a while of studying till my eyes were so tired I could not see the words on the page and had put down the book otherwise I would keep going. Did that for about 2 years straight without a break not even on holidays. As I would get ready for next set of classes during my “downtime.”
Then I put all that energy into countless other things. None of them work out as expect. People noticed I need to pour in all those hours. This made them very very very happy. The only person that was unhappy was me even more so with how little I got out of anything.
While I have always been fat it’s never been this bad. So in a way, I’ve useed my newest addiction to make me go out and exercise.
For a while, I only exercised because I had a weekly blog about my health and fitness “challenge” so I needed to do something daily to write. Which allowed me to work out a few hours a week and even eat better. I got bored of it after a while. Then I mostly stop exercising as well when I stop posting about it.
I still get on the treadmill a couple of time a week now. One for some shitty weekend exercise post I plan on making weekly as a friendly remind people to need to go do something instead of sitting in a dang chair all day long.
Another part, I miss being able to go hiking deep into parks and seeing nature. Naturally, this will give me something to blog about so I want to get in better shape to do this. I’ll also be dead sooner than later if I don’t try and be more healthy.
In a couple of years, I might see it again in person. I wish you best of luck in finding out why you are chasing and what can better replace your current energy usage that makes you happier and healthy.