When it comes to survival, there are things we can't just help, we just have to keep doing it. I understand ur feelings when you talked about your risky job, but u can't stop it considering the fact that you are a family man now. But I believe with time, you will be more comfortable and you won't have to work your ass off.
Thanks man. I hope so that there will come a day when I get to relax and be able to spend more time with my kids and live a comfortable life.