Holy badass username. Now I'm jealous, yours is clearly better than mine. LOL.
Ok, but in all seriousness here, that was a great introduction for someone who is "not a writer".
No writer who develops his/her own voice follows any one set of grammatical rules flawlessly.
The natural writer wants to convey a certain ebb and flow, vibe or tone, and rigid linguistic formatting tends to kill the buzz for many (though perhaps not everyone).
I want you to know how much I was reading my past self in your words.
I was once right where you are--not very practiced at my writing (though I had a knack for it always, and I think you may as well), and totally new to putting my voice out there. I was nervous, it was outside my comfort zone, and I had no idea where it would lead.
But I was a new anarchist, who had been convicted that I did not want to remain quiet, keep my head down, and shut up... when so many people still supported evil unwittingly.
So I just put one foot in front of the other. That is all you're doing here. Try not to have specific expectations of how anything will turn out, just enjoy each moment, write from the heart, and have a general sense of gratitude and positive expectation that if you stay just outside your comfort zone--magic happens.
It's an uncomfortable truth, necessarily. ;)
Thanks! That's EXACTLY the kind of feedback I was hoping to get. Sometimes I overthink and overcomplicate things and it gets in the way of who I am or the message I'm trying to convey and it's good to be reminded of that. I think I may have been taking myself a little too serious in the realm of grammar and you realized it and pointed it out. But it's always relieving when someone tells you they've been exactly where you're at. There aren't too many out there who share anarchist views so it can feel a little desolate at times BUT that's changing everyday. Thank you so much for the thoughtful comment and taking the time.
And I'm glad you like the username! But I have to say, yours is pretty gnarly.