Spikkel was very handsome. All the blessings and shining glory unto him! Live through your grief fully, my friend, and come out cleansed, for although he's gone in body for now, his spirit shall remain with you and your family, and he may reincarnate to accompany you some more in this life. I know that's hard to believe, but I've seen it happen.
Un gran abrazo, Vincent. Peace and joy for you when you're ready!