I'm only 1:39 into your video and experience all the same stuff you do. I'm 31 years old and have trouble with anxiety and relating to women. Haven't spoken to my mom for over two years, so it's difficult for me to imagine being in a relationship with someone because I'm not used to being around people.
Thank you andrew30. I understand how you feel. I personally find it very hard to keep relationships with my family because I just do not do a good job having conversations with people. I get nervous starting up conversations because I find that I do not know what to say after a couple sentences and I get super conscious and plain weird.
Is your mom an extroverted person?
Yes, but she has a lot of drug and alcohol problems. also is bipolar, so you never know what kind of mood she is in. I get nervous around people too, but what helps me out a lot is going to the gym and working out. I find that my confidence rises quite a bit when I lift weights.
oh ok. that is really tough. :/ Have you had to deal with those problems all of your life or did your mom recently get into that?
It is good that you have found something to help you through the nervousness.
Today I had to go to a work lunch with people I didn't really know and I felt very self conscious.
My mom had issues all my life but got worse after I turned 13. The problem with bipolar is you never know what mood the person is in on any given day, so I just elect to stay away from it until she gets the help needed to rectify the negative mood swings.
As far as the anxiety goes, I dealt with a really nasty learning disability that hindered much of my confidence level. As I grew older, became very self-aware of this issue and then people around me were very abusive, so over timed learned to hate myself over it.
Just recently I read a book called the Dark Triad Man by Ivan Throne and would suggest anybody with anxiety read it because the author had his own issues to deal with, so he has great insight in developing self-confidence.
Thank you for listening. You're an awesome blogger.
Wow that must have been really tough to deal with starting so young. It absolutely disgusts me how people abuse those who need support the most. I have also dealt with abuse and would try so hard to remember that they were incorrect and I was a good person. It is so hard to believe in yourself when there are more people fighting against you.
I am going to take your recommendation and find that book. Thinking about it, having more self confidence could have helped me love myself and not let others define who I was.
Thank you for sharing your story.
No problem.