Hey :')
Tonight i'm back with a bit more spiritual picture! I made it to swiftly capture what it felt like when i was coming back from a very meditative state i had experienced when i was outside.
During this state i felt something that i had felt many months ago, where i was reaching a state of awareness that, for just a brief moment, let me feel this inexplainable sense of connection and peacefulness that is inside me, yet everywhere at the same time.
It was as if for that moment, there was nothing i was afraid of, not even death, there was just blissfulness and a feeling of deep gratitude for being able to experience through this consciousness. I will never be able to explain this with words, but maybe a picture can do it!
Afterwards this feeling lingered on for a bit, yet much less alive and quickly fleeting with every outside stimulation coming in that made me drift towards lower states of awareness again.
Yet i kept a tiny bit of the unforgettable reminder, that everything and everyone around me is me, and no matter how positive or negative it is, it just is. When i'm able to truly listen to this realization, without any negative input, i lose a lot of anxiety and get to have small breakthroughs that chip away at my illusiory self, and the superficial shell it tries to protect itself with.
It makes me also able to let go of negative concepts that tried to feed themselves on and on with all kinds of justifications as to why it should remain and be allowed to grow. Yet realizing these destructive thought patterns, and seeing them for what they are, allowed me to expose them to my awareness, which organically cleaned them up as their purpose had been fulfilled.
Sitting still doing nothing...sometimes i still can't believe just how something so simple can make you realize just how alive you are, yet funnily enough also makes you realize that life is simple if you flow with it, and any added concepts and explanations are practical tools to navigate the physical part of this experience. Whew.
Hope you enjoyed my simple painting :') Until next time!
Wow, beautiful painting, and especially beautiful words to go with it. Looking at your painting, I'm reminded of a very similar sensation I've had recently, always while walking in the evening, almost of peace/oneness with the universe. It's a truly difficult feeling to try to explain, but I think you've emoted it well.
Thank you for the kind words :) Yes indeed it's very hard to communicate it with the tools available.. i can only give vague pointers to what i'm trying to explain, but i'm glad i managed to picture it so that you could relate as well with your experience of these feelings! I also notice that being outside leads to these experiences more "easily", wonder why that is. Maybe the monkey's just gotta be monkeying around outside haha :)