I have been beaten so hard, so hard that I got destroyed. Yes, I was destroyed. I tried so hard to keep holding my last piece, but eventually I have nothing left.
Then I lost, I was lost in the void of nothingness, no real emotions, no hope, no desire, I have thrown myself away, I became someone else. I thought I was lost forever. But the love and warmth I get from my surroundings has summoned the old me back to the light of hope, I raised from the ashes and regrow with a new perspective and stronger. Bad things happen, but that's not the end of the world, bad things will keep appearing after one and another, so do wonderful things
In the past I failed to see all the beautiful things inside the storm in my life, in the past I used the wrong frame and perspective to see the world, I was so hopeless and depressed, I thought this world only full of ghost and curses like the grown-up showed me, but now I know, besides all the negative things there are positive and wonderful things exist in this world, it take eons for me to be able to see the bright side
For you who are lost and depressed like me in the past, please don't give up on hope, there're people who are care and love you, there're a lot of wonderful things happened in your life, it's hard to see them in your cloudy mind, but if you see carefully, you'll see them.
I came here to write my random thoughts, I love to share my thoughts, but as I'm not confident to share it to people around me, I decided to share it here, my blog, where no one from my life circle gonna read it, hahaha... because I am afraid they're gonna call me a drama queen 😅
How to Paint
Drawing Tools : Arto watercolor paper A4, Brushes, Phoenix watercolor, Mission Silver Watercolor, pencil, eraser, water, towel,tissue,and masking tape.
I always draw a simple sketch, it helps a lot in painting process. I love to spend my time at a cafe and painting, but now I can't do it, since you know.... Corona
My paintings used to be dark and full of grudge, but nowadays I love painting flowers with soft colors, indeed, your painting is like a mirror of your soul 😃
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