Time for long and vulnerable share for my Steemit family and some of my recent Art! Buddha of Illumination lit up my recent darkness. It was not an emotionally easy time lately for me. I felt very lonely and hurt (despite being a loner by default, which really comes with my profession). I missed people I love, particularly one. What I made out of these strong emotions will be shared in this post.
Every energy, regardless of it's vibration (low or high) can be embraced, transformed and used a fuel for creating something beautiful. The stronger the emotion the stronger the energy, the greater the potential for transformation. After all, fear is the flip side of Love.
As I said, I am a faithful friend and daily gardener of alone time. I thrive on alone time. I don't think that an artist/creator ever walked this Earth whose imagination and creativity would not flourish in times spent on their own. Obviously "on their own" only means physical presence of other people, because we, artists (and that includes you since humans are all artists (creative) by birthright), know very well that the good Spirits of Muse come pay us visit in such times the most.
But there's old pains deep in my unconscious mind that come to surface in the times when everyone else is with their families and loved ones. Such is the ordeal of human predicament. We all have countless fears running in the background program of our subconscious that we're mostly unaware of, unless and until we step on a committed path of self-realization and mindfulness, which is basically all about dissolving the old beliefs (about ourselves and the world) we created in our childhood. Unconscious part of mind is invisible to the conscious mind yet it forms 95% of how we think and react. This alone should stop everyone in their tracks and ask the question: how can I access it? Obviously that's the key question because it is just SO important to open the door and gain clarity over unconscious mind. Anyone who wants to change their lives for the better and on permanent basis cannot do it with by changes in conscious mind alone. It's a lost fight.
Unconscious is the submerged part of the iceberg that won't budge at the dance of penguins on top of it.
The submerged part of the iceberg is our unconscious mind, and the whale is the greater good that we're not aware of, although it ALWAYS SUPPORTS US IN OUR GREATEST MISSION, the dream of our heart, which is to come BACK HOME TO LIGHT!
We need to bypass the barrier to Ali Baba's cave to harvest the unlimited treasures which wait for us in the real of "unknown". And mind (thoughts, feelings, emotions, that constant chatter in our heads) is precisely the barrier that guards the entrance of the magical cave.
My particular pain that came to surface on the Thanksgiving weekend wasn't a pain of "alone time". It was fear of abandonment. Fear of being left alone. You don't have to rationalize your fears with your current life situation. that is just the trigger. It's very likely that the seed of that fear was planted in time that you can't consciously remember, in early childhood. Fear we experienced in one moment when our mother was separated from us or punished us by isolation, or when we felt abandoned, unloved, unappreciated.
That pain was resisted and so it planted a seed of Sanskara (karma) and stayed in our system as unreleased energetic loop (mostly in heart chakra). We learned to cover up that pain with a reaction loop so we would not have to face it and experience is again. Coffee, sex, alcohol, shopping, TV, validation by social media or meaningless banter with friends with no real listening - pick your drug of choice. Yet that thing which came to surface asked for our attention for a divine reason: it wants us to be free. The flip side of every shadow is a gift. Gift of freedom (from suffering) is where we are being called by life in every moment, if we only listened.
As I mention in the below YouTube video (thank you for subscribing to my channel!) , any energy can be harnessed for good cause.
There is only one requirement:
awareness.
With awareness, we step back from the seat of "reactor" and sit in the comfy armchair of "observer". Observer is much more of an actor than reactor, if you now what I mean:) You don't have to move a finger on your body to have a breakthrough to your unconscious mind, dissolve an ancient pain and access the quantum field of consciousness (some call it God) where everything already exists as a possibility. From there all you need is to of energetic match to whatever you want to manifest in your life. And you don't have to dream up castles. You don't have to make mind movies. It much more about feeling than any imagery. So don't make it complicated and just feel GOOD and GRATEFUL.
And the good news is: when you finally get over yourself and access that nurturing infinite blackness, you will feel not good, but GREAT by default. This is not a space of mind, this is not where you go around thinking. This is a place of eternal bliss, where you feel whole and all you radiate is just deep gratitude for the life that you are. If you just "react" from mind program you have learned years (ages) ago (we have one for pretty much every different situation stored in our body), you're not an actor, you're a slave puppet of something you can't control. So take a deep breath and step back. Observe before reacting. The gold is being revealed to you, and if it was easy, it would not be rare.
This is how this Buddha Journey started, long before the howling wolf landed on his shoulder and jumping whale in his lap
So I did my best in these challenging times not to slide into the oh-so-familiar role of victim. It wasn't perfect but it was was good enough. I took that emotion of sadness and abandonment and I embraced it fully, I let it all in. And then I dived in it so deep that I could feel its currents. I spread the wings of creativity and soared high on that pain, feeling its fire, making it out of the mud into the clear sky where my tears dried in the loving sunshine. What came of out of it is what you see here: Buddha of Illumination, which only took me a week to create from scratch.
Buddha of Illumination, oil and genuine gold on canvas, sold to a happy client in Australia
I hope you enjoyed the story and the process. May it bring you courage in the times of darkness. May you always know that you are loved, and never alone. And if you don't believe in God, just know there's this artist dude Jan somewhere on this planet, who felt like you, who hurt like you, who made it through like you and who loves you, as a comrade in arms on this poignant human journey.
So Much Love!
Jan
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Your work is absolutely mind blowing!!! And I just LOVE this...
You radiate so much positivity!!!
and thanks to the resteem by @lichtblick as this was how I found you :)
@jaynie thanks so much, I truly appreciate your lovely feedback. @lichtblick is my brother, big hugs to him!
Hahaha.
Thank you @jaynie.
Very kind. Glad that my resteem has worked out well brother :-) Big hugs back and sending much love.
oh wow!!! Lovely to "meet" the family haha!!! And as for the feedback, my PLEASURE!!! I actually also shared that post with the crowd listening in on the @innerblocks show on Tuesday this week... you got MANY compliments and I hope at least a handful of them perhaps popped by!
Really lovely to get to know the both of you @jankasparec and @lichtblick!
Welcome back with another amazing piece!
thanks for the support (one fat upvote , deeply humbled bro) @acidyo !
"It's much more about feeling than any imagination. So don't make it complicated and just feel GOOD and GRATEFUL."I completely agree with this idea!
Thank you Svetlana, happy you resonated with my words!
Just WOW. Your artistic talent and expression combined with your consciousness and life experience make for nothing short of spectacular visual communication!! Thank you for taking the time to use your words to caption this special piece, that even without your description would transcend any human language to convey the messages of the multiverse of sacred life and divine love. Amazing!!!
Thank you kindly @freemotherearth (such a lovely account name btw). You words touched me. Deep bows of gratitude ! <3 528
Amazing work man! And great message as well, thanks for sharing.
Hi Fen! Thanks for the comment and for reading @fenngen! Appreciated!
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Definitely helped. Much Love!
Hello Jan - amazing painting indeed....its so alive and calming effect on mind the moment one sees! Truly mesmerizing.....I am new to Steemit and learning to understand the site and really nice to be around interesting people like you having amazing skills and talents.
Vipassana babe
Not sure about that babe part, but Vipassana for sure! ;)
It’s good to be aware of your work and as a fellow artist (poet) much of what you write resonates.
Emboldened by the sense that we face the same general direction, here’s an introduction to my work:
descriptionStay blessed 🙏🏼✨
THanks for sharing bro!
this is great
thank you !
Tending post ;-) Well done brother.
That was a nice "comeback" present brother. Thanks so much for your support!
Wow.. you are a genius. ..❤
I'm a regular everyday dude from a little town :D jk, we are all geniuses!
Amazing art!
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Thank you
Amazing work :)
Thank you kindly
Congratulations @jankasparec!
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@arcange , I wanna steal your logo and account name, I dig it thaaaaat much! :) Thanks bro, really appreciate all the support !
Hehe... sorry, they are mine!
You wanna make me an interesting offer? 😂
At least, let's start with a vote for me as a witness 😝
wow this is amazing work of yours.
Thanks bro, doing my best :P
yes you are doing your best that is great.
Wery good work broo
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Thanks a lot brother!
Such a stunning piece of work--both the artwork and the blog post! Much of this resonates with me, so thank you for opening up and sharing. 💚
always incredible artwork!
It's great. It's real
Amazing art work and an inspiring piece of writing, great work 👍🏻
It's amazing this art, precious, beautiful, congratulations.
OMG