Such a profoundly disturbing experience that you have described so well. It evidently remains a very real and tangible terror and so you demonstrate enormous reserves of resilience in reframing the chaos that many might have succumbed to.
Isn't it extraordinary that even after such a terrifying experience, you would continue on a psychedelic journey? But then, I guess the need for a more 'one love' insight would be motivation enough after the agonising void.
You have a special kind of bravery in your reflections.
Yes. I ultimately have decided that psychedelics are no more evil or good than the world itself. They seem to be something altogether different yet totally intertwined with our past and future. I have had many more experiences since then and I definitely approach with more caution nowadays. I have come to appreciate more aspects of my life through my difficult trips, so in this way I can see real benefit to persistence and endurance. I take a lot less for granted.