Grief is complicated, exhausting and not preventable. I hadn't left my bed for 4 days. Yesterday I felt like giving up. Again. I quite literally FORCED myself to get up and bathe and put make up on. Sometimes we have to MAKE ourselves keep moving forward. No one can do it but you. Hope can even be found in feeling pretty for a moment. 
Sometimes, we all just want to stay in bed. You have more reasons than anyone else. Give yourself all the time you need, and you won't have to force anything :)
Well you are up and going today! And you have a platform to share all your thoughts :)