"My Ayahuasca experience"

Hello, and welcome here to my story on how I ended up doing Ayahuasca and the results after my experiences. Being that I have done it 4 times almost in a row. It all started last year in the second week of August 2015 , I went to a Real Estate Conference here in Miami, Florida. I sat down and blah blah you know corporate real estate stuff talk, but after a few hours lunch came finally haha. I went for lunch and met this nice woman from the conference and we began talking about business etc. Finally I decided to sit next to her in the conference room, and so waiting for the class to begin again, and since we were so engaged in our talk. Spiritually came up along with psychedelics haha, I know crazy right?
So out of no where our conversation grew on this topic, then I told her about Ayahuasca and how I have been feeling ready to do it. She told me yeah "I have done a few times", and i'm like "Yeah but I don't have the money to travel to South America to do it." What she told me next blew me away! She said oh no I did it "here in Homestead, Florida" which is south of Miami. Im like in my head thinking wow for sure now you have me really interested in really going for it since its so close and not miles away!

Then she told me yeah ill give you the number of the organizer for the Ayahuasca ceremony, and I was nervous because I knew I was going to venture forth to do Ayahuasca. The interesting thing was that the following week was the ceremony, so I had only a week to prepare. Its like it was all synchronicity...

So I called the ceremony organizer, a very nice lady and we spoke about many things related to spirituality etc. Then she asked me questions to see if I was able and ready to do Ayahuasca. And I passed all the questions haha
So then it was arranged that I was to go to the location, which was a Native American Land.

Everything felt nervous for me, but the day finally arrived on a Saturday of the third week of August. The time the ceremony started was at 10pm but being there early was important to set up where I would stay for the night, like camping without a tent haha. So I arrive in this private Native American Land, it was around 7pm and I park my car.
So I park my car, take my sleeping bag and water etc. Walk towards the bond fire where everyone was, I was told that the left part of the circle was for men and the left for woman. I then set up my things on the grass greeted the guys next to me, after I went to pay the organizer for the ceremony which was $120.

So finally 10pm comes around then everyone is in the circle around the bond fire, and the Shaman with his assistance begin to prepare for the ceremony. Explaining that the circle we sat in was for our protection and that there was only one exit through the entrance only. Then the shaman called for the men first to drink the Ayahuasca, Im waiting in line and all i'm thinking is "OMG this is it" there is no turning back with my heart pounding being nervous. Finally its my turn and the shaman asks me if it was my first time. I said said yes he then pours the Ayahuasca into a small shot glass, I drank it and let me tell you....It was disgusting!!! OMG the taste was so bad, and the worst park is that the taste stayed in my mouth the whole night!

So then I walked to and sat on my sleeping bag, tried to calm myself by talking the the guys next me. Eventually after like 15 minutes we were told by the shamans assistants that it was time to be quite and to be focused on our own journey of Ayahuasca. So i'm like ok, I laid down looking at the stars and starting to feel some type of affects on my mind. Then bam my awareness zooms in the stars, I see the stars as beings observing me and everyone. I mean I was seeing that stars are not what we think they are, they are beings the way I was seeing them on Ayahuasca. Then I spot what looked like two small butterfly light beings in the sky that moved wherever I looked in the sky. They followed my eyes wherever I looked, so I stopped and looked at them. OMG one of them began to make contact with me by staying focused on my eyes, sending me a portal beam of information directly into me through my eyes. It was a weird language I heard as it entered my body completely taking over me! I saw all these crazy things on my body filled with weird symbols and languages...its hard to explain what I was seeing in and out of my body. Galactic memory perhaps in my DNA? I don't know it was spreading all over my body forcing me to change and seeing these things, it was beyond terrifying and scary. It was so uncomfortable, I was at this point reaching total possession from this being that it was messing with my consciousness and making go insane. Then I snapt! I said NO! This is wrong! You are violating my free will and body mind temple! I was there fighting this crap out of me! Going back and forth from our world and some other place world or whatever it was! haha

The guys next to me were like your speaking another language bro! I began losing it puking, rolling my eyes, feeing so scared without anyone being able to help me! I was having such a big panic attack. I got so bad the shaman and his assistants had to come and stand in front of me to help defeat this negative evil out of me! Wow!
Then came time for me to get up... Oh my god was this so hard, I felt so discombobulated and scared to get up. But I did , I was so messed up walking, talking, wherever I looked I would turn around and be somewhere else. I was going to the purge/puke holes outside the circle where I was.

Finally I made it to the puke holes and started puke the most darkest things out of my body its hard to explain but I felt so powerless with all these images of symbols languages voices from aliens and geometric patterns. As I puked this evil toxic shit out I felt the earth and the voice of the plants. Any way back I went to my spot in the circle, and I began to really trip crazy! I saw so many colors and circles of creation with descriptions of other superior knowledge, it was so scary! seeing and feeling these things plus these voices of aliens, reason I say aliens is because as these huge trip visions faded away I looked in the sky and could see an alien face dark/black. Looked like a grey alien but dark looking at me...

The shaman began playing music called the men to the circle of the bond fire and I was so happy to be with the fire haha I felt it was my only true friend! After that I went to sleep in my sleeping bag and actually was able to sleep...
After I woke up for about an hour, the ceremony was ending it was morning the sun was out 7am and I was like yeah i'm getting the flip out of here!...haha

I left with all my things, and one of the shamans assistants told me to stay to close the chakras or whatever.. yeah right I left in my car. Im driving at this point so happy to be in our world of 3D with our ability to enjoy a pretty sane life, to create and enjoy the pleasures of this world. This is what I was thinking, I knew I was changed forever after that experience of Ayahuasca. Driving on the highway I was thinking differently about life and I still was coming back to reality, in fact it took me a whole day in a half to feel that I was back here in this dimension... Wow I know right! Haha

After that a few months later in October, November of last year, and in January of this year I did Ayahuasca again...
What are my thoughts on it, honestly I don't recommend it at all. You know this whole thing or things you hear about Ayahuasca being a medicine and that it heals your trauma. I think thats all bullshit in my opinion from experience.
I realized that I have all the work to do in myself and that spirituality with the ayahuasca nonsense, its not a medicine. Its a drug like any other drug straight up truth, its very very powerful, and everyone has different affects personally. I was traumatized for months and months later. Last month I had a random panic attack that resembled the Ayahuasca experience. I realized I don't need that way of thinking, lifestyle or drugs like ayahuasca because thats what it is to me...
Nothing against anyone...its my own experience and opinion...

With that being said Cheers much love! :+)