My Story of Stress, Anxiety and Depression #1

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My story of stress, anxiety and depression

I was making a sandwich while a strong pain in my groin suddenly arrived. The pain was so intense it imediately started an anxiety attack. This was my first anxiety attack. Because it was my first I ofcourse how to handle it, so I panicked. With my vision slowly getting more blurred and my heart racing, I went for my phone. As I walked towards the sofa in my living room I started looking for my phone. I knew I left it on the sofa. I was unable to find it, and as the intensity of my anxiety attack grew stronger I gave up. I couldn't find it. At this point I thought I was going to die. I was actually pretty sure. I went towards the entrance and in the very instance I tried to open the door I passed out....

This was probably a sign that I had to slow down. That I had to think about myself. That I had to quit my job as a salesman. That I was no where near happy. That I wasn't being true to myself.

After this episode I continued. I was too blind to see what was going on. That or I just wouldn't admit it. Months went on. Working at the same pace and more deadlines. Until I realised it.

I was stressed. I was really stressed. I had slept 2-4 hours a night for weeks. Every symptom of stress was showing, but for a 21-years old, we are told to just keep going. That was what I did, until my body said stop. One day, at job, I felt something was wrong. I called my boss, and told him: "Hey...I am not feeling good...I think I'm stressed". I was really nervous what my millionaire boss would say. I was on the edge of crying when I told him, but I didn't. Now I wish I did. It still feels like those tears are still trapped in me. At that call I gave up. I surrendered. I had no idea what was in front of me. The next months was the worst part of my life. The next couple of months I spent home. Doing nothing. Just relaxing. This was when the pain grew stronger, and stronger. From stress to anxiety, and into the horrible state of depression.

I think that's it for now....See you next time. Maybe.

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