Sounds like you would enjoy microdosing. Plenty of esoteric rabbit holes, and you can do it without gumming up your home with tons of stickers.
it seems like your handwriting changes a bit with each ink color change.
Not your imagination. My handwriting changes all the time depending on lots of factors, but primarily mood and how quickly I want to get an idea down on paper even if it means I won't be able to read what the idea was later.
Do you find your hand just sometimes doesn't want to cooperate? I do think hands have big opinions sometimes.
Yes! Dammit, hand, why did you just dot that A is a common one. Or when I'm thinking ahead while writing my hand thinks ahead with me and writes the future before the present sentence can be finished.
Ha, yes I have that problem too! My primary one is that my hand likes to be rigid and obstinate sometimes. I'll be like come on, let's write this neat but quick and my hand refuses. I think it is actually psychological rather than a physical problem, kind of like some people stutter because they are obsessed with speaking perfectly.
That's why I stutter? Damn, I need to chill tf out.
You and me both :)