Ah, the struggle of figuring out what to do to "make a living." It looks like you've already worked yourself out of that box!
...as I write this I feel like it's all I need. Everything else will fall into place. It will require hard work, but it will make sense. Maybe it's the kratom talking but I believe I can do this, especially if I have help.
Sounds like you found the entrance to your path of synchronicity. You're right that things will fall into place along that path, as long as you're trusting them to. Maybe it is the kratom talking, but I think that's probably a good thing.
Follow your innermost desires, the ones that feel like intrigue and inspiration and truth. They will change as you change and move through life, so tune in often.
Thank you! I love the videos you link. I hope you're right and this works out :)