A Day in My Life and Overcoming Anxiety

[iamraine]

A Day in My Life and Overcoming Anxiety

Hey Hivers! It's my first time blogging about a day in my life. I don't know what got me into writing this but perhaps I wanted to share something with you. Let's talk about my day today, mental illness, productivity, and others. Are you ready? Let me get started then.

Normally, I don't have a productive day. I just lay down, watch K-Drama, lurk at social media until I didn't notice my day has ended already. Yes, I'm not really productive since I quit my corporate job last year. Do you sometimes feel the same? Unproductive the whole day.

But hey, I do freelance work if I have to. Lately, I'm trying to fix my schedule and be as productive as I can. Might not be true to anyone but when I have anxiety, I just don't want to do anything and this phenomenon will last for weeks, even months.

I don't know when this started. All I know was when I quit corporate, I felt lost. I took a break and then work part-time ESL Teacher then take a break again. I have had this cycle for more than a year now. Work shortly, take a break for a longer time.

Fortunately, about two weeks ago, I just had some realizations about my life. I've thought of the future, what I really want, the goals I want to achieve, and live the life I truly want. But in order for me to obtain these things, I know I need to start the change in myself- my daily routine.

But today, I'm sharing with you how productive my day is!

I woke up around 6:30 this morning as I have to go to the bank (Landbank) to apply for a savings account. I could go later but the queue is too long which was the reason I wasn't able to get the card last time. So, the earlier the better.

When I got into the bank fifteen minutes before 8, it was still not open. I have to get in line and wait for 8:30 for us to get inside. Take note, I only had 4 hours of sleep as I did some work until dawn. So, I almost fell asleep while in the queue. Hihi. It took me almost three hours to finally get my card after a long waiting time for my turn.

After the bank, I walked to my next destination - McDonald's. I need to grab breakfast as I haven't eaten one, and it's past 10 already. But it will take me seven minutes to arrive tho. And I forgot to bring an umbrella or a hat. It was so hot outside at this time.

While walking, I met an old man selling raw peanuts under the heat of the sun. Since I'm too soft for old people, I stopped and bought peanuts from him. Fortunately, some other passersby bought as well. Really admire old people working hard although I wish for them to stay at home, and get enough rest. I have 70-year-olds grandma and grandpa whom I really love and treasure.

I continued walking while bringing peanuts. Finally, I arrived at my destination. Gosh, I miss McDo. I always eat Jollibee as it's my favorite fast food. By the way, do you know Jollibee? It's a famous fast food in the Philippines. That's why I miss the taste of McDonald's as I haven't eaten it for a long time now.

So, when I got in, there's another queue. Yeah right, with social distancing too.

When it was my turn to order, I was asked if it's Dine-In or Take Out. Of course, I said Dine-In as I have to eat breakfast. Unfortunately, she asked for my vaccination card which I don't have yet. Heck, I haven't been vaccinated since I get sick on and off. I'm scared to get vaccinated in this situation. Well, I have a little cough tho but believe me, this isn't corona okay? My cough just lasted for weeks or months which I am frustrated about even though I drink medicines. Is my immune system that weak?

Anyway, I was disappointed as I got blatant rejection. So I left with a heavy heart. Haha kidding aside, I understood the situation. So I looked for another place to eat. Then, I came across my favorite go-to cafeteria. Is this even a cafeteria? Lol, the store is called Ngohiong Express because they sell Ngohiong - a (popular Cebuano delicacy usually made of meat, ubod, five-spice powder, and a lumpia wrapper). They also sell other kinds of food like chicken, tempura, squid ball, etc.

There you go! That's Ngohiong in the picture above tho. It's very delicious! You should try it next time if you haven't eaten it yet. The sauce is amazing too!!

So, I ordered chicken leg, ngohiong, rice and Pepsi as my drink. Trust me, the sauce is really tasty which is why I love to eat Ngohiong Express. Also, this breakfast is only 70 pesos or 1.5 dollars. Is it cheap? If I've eaten at McDo, that might cost me more than 3 dollars. So, I was able to save half of the price. Hehe. I also got full after eating breakfast.

I stayed for a while, surfing the net and getting updated on some celebrity news. LOL. Afterward, I left the place and walked again to my next destination - Gaisano Island Mall.

I'm not fond of shopping by the way, but I planned to get my nails done that day too so I went to a nail salon.

I used to go to this salon to get my nails done. I love the ambiance and the service too. Plus, I could sleep while waiting for my nails to get done. 😄

It took more than an hour to finish both my manicure and pedicure. I was able to sleep too! I was really so tired and sleepy. Glad to have this place where I could have self-care and relax at the same time.

Oh, how I love my nails! I have almost the same color with my toenails tho. It's pretty awesome!

Anyway, after having a Me Time at the salon, I went home. It's already three in the afternoon and I was so sleepy already.

Pardon my haggard look, I just took some selfies before I went to take a nap. Meet my bear at the back, she's Kei and has been with me for 3 years now.

Before sleeping, I thought of what happened today. Indeed, it was quite productive for me. Oh, I do have some work after a nap. Before, I always sleep and don't wanna do anything.

I am not even motivated to do something! That's anxiety kicking within me and I had a hard time dealing with it. But right now, I feel better. I quite understand myself. I listen to some podcasts about Mental Health and hear inspirations from Motivational Speakers.

I'm just glad I'm now back on track. I am ready to take new challenges and overcome my limiting beliefs.

I am overcoming my Anxiety. Mental Illness is REAL!

Sadly, there is a stigma and discrimination regarding Mental Illness. A lot of people don't believe it, and worse telling you you're only overreacting. My parents don't even know what Anxiety is. That's why it's hard for me to open up unless I break down in front of them. I had these breakdowns in front of them before but usually, I break down alone, in my room, crying out of nowhere, and perhaps sometimes don't even know the reason.

But since two weeks ago, I felt redeemed. When I met new people, expanded my network, start doing blogs in HIVE, and focused my mindset on the kind of future I want, things just became different. I like the changes. Slowly but surely. I'm taking little steps towards consistency. As you see, being consistent will make your life progressive.

I enrolled in another freelance course, and that keeps me busier. I hate the idea of being busy before but now? I like to take the challenge and overcome my limiting beliefs. How will I achieve my goals if I won't, right? But don't worry, I'm not forcing myself to do things I don't like or do things that added to my mental stress. I am now learning how to take a break when it's needed.

How about you? Do you also have a hard time dealing with yourself like me?

Would love to know your story too. Always remember. It's okay to not be okay. Take a break when you have to. Keep going;

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Comments

[asasiklause]

I don't know when this started. All I know was when I quit corporate, I felt lost. I took a break and then work part-time ESL Teacher then take a break again. I have had this cycle for more than a year now. Work shortly, take a break for a longer time.

I have the same feeling when I quit my regular day job. But it felt like the best decision I made. I think it's because we've got used to the routine and once we get out of it, we feel lost.

That's Ngohiong in the picture above tho. It's very delicious! You should try it next time if you haven't eaten it yet. The sauce is amazing too!!

MY FAVORITE!!!

[iamraine]

Yess!! Quitting gave me peace of mind actually but it also caused a lot of unproductive days since I have no routine anymore. How are you now?

And yey! Ngohiong favorite 100!

[asasiklause]

I'm doing Freelance stuff too but it's not that consistent but so far I'm loving it because I'm in control of my time. I have more time for myself, my friends, and the people, I care about the most. I tend to let myself be unproductive not because I feel lazy but because I feel the need to rest. I have overworked myself for so many years and it's about time to give myself the rest it requires when it need too. Corporate thought us to multi-task and be productive all the time and I guess it wasn't and it isn't healthy after all. We arent robots.

[indayclara]

icopy paste ni nako na reply b. same ra mi og opiniion jud.

Walay makalupid sa freedom of time which I just now enjoyed after resigning a toxic corporate life.

[asasiklause]

Some people are blessed to be able to find a source of income aside from working in the corporate world, but sadly for some, it doesn't work for them. I sometimes miss working with people and taking the lead but most of the time I enjoy having a stress-free day with my friends, girlfriend, or my dogs. Or just here in Hive. Making and reading blogs and meeting awesome people!

[iamraine]

Trueeee. Corpo life is too toxic plus daghan demands 😌

[iamraine]

Same case. Felt overworked so I did the biggest decision in my career. Lol studied for five years pero nag quit sa work after two years. I realized I really value time freedom. Also, salary is not ideal lol

[asasiklause]

There are times that we stay working because our salary somehow compensates to all the stress, pressure and loads of work. With that salary we could spend some vacations that could relieve all the stress but if the salary is not even that big or ideal, MUHAWA SD KO! Ahhahahahaha.

[iamraine]

Yes din. Salary could let someone stay pero in my case, dmd bahala na hahahahaha scam jud sweldo sa Pinas 😂

[jongcl]

Sending you warm hugs and lots of love💕
Living in anxiety is damn right scary and it's brave of you to share this part of your story with us.
You're never alone in what you're going through, remember that🤗hugsss

[iamraine]

Hi! Thank you so much. Indeed pretty scary doing nothing, not motivated yet has to push self to continue living. Hehe sending hugs too. 🙂

[junebride]

mental health is important. I find that writing about my life and everything in between helps especially for postpartum... you sure have found a great medium to release those thoughts in your mind..

dugaya na nako wala ka anha mactan uy.hehe

[iamraine]

Hello, now lang jud ko kabasa sa comments. Hehe Yes mental health is important. I thought my case wasn't serious pero almost 3 months na naa sa kwarto pirmi, watching dramas and feeling empty pirmi. It was difficult to get back tbh and took more than a year jud for me to move forward. This pandemic triggers it din guro.

Aw balik Mactan puhon. Hehe open man arii 😆

[junebride]

wala mi ka visit sa mactan pag visit namo sa cebu last week dah...

[iamraine]

Oh Bohol man diay ka sa, hehe next time! From Bohol sad some relatives nako

[coffee247]

Thanks for sharing, I have sometimes this anxiety moment. There are times I was just sleeping the whole day but I still feel the tiredness. I don't care anymore how I look or to take a bath 🤣 because I just don't care anymore. The house is a mess and I don't know where to start cleaning. I've been disorganized and so lazy. Great to know you're doing good now, please keep on. 😊

[iamraine]

Hey thanks for checking this. And yes anxiety can be worse when not handled well. It took me 3 months to feel empty everyday, watch dramas in bedroom alone, feeling lost and other emptions. More than a year of process to healing I guess? Because I'm quite fine now hehe

You too. Please keep going ☺️

[chinito]

:) kumusta raine? Tomorrow is thanksgiving over here in usa.. americans stuff themselves with turkey and stuffing and 'give thanks' for stuff. Usually tho, I only go out once a week on weekend, to go grocery shopping. I used to go to the gym on weekdays, but all the gyms closed here. but it's cool, i am a stay at home person mostly. the computer brings me everywhere..

I was also diagnosed as bipolar (manic/depressive) when i was 16 and have been living with that since. so i definitely have THOSE days/weeks/months and can totally relate. good for u for taking steps to make things better.. forced advancement! :P one step forward is all it takes to get to the destination.. well, i should say repeated/constant steps. my mom tells me i go 2 steps forward, 1 step back. (i really do walk that way sometimes)

That lumpia eggroll looked yummy. and u saved some money by NOT going macdo. cool.

[iamraine]

Oh Happy Thanksgiving day! And yes so many things changed since pandemic but really hope things will get back to normal soon. Stay safe!

Yes, mental illness is serious and real. So, we need to overcome it to continue living. It's tough but it's also about getting help and having right mindset. Hope you're doing fine!

Hahaha i know and it's tastier than mcdo :D

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