Hi, guys!
I still can't get out of the hole I've fallen into with my mental health. It's the third day of active treatment and everything feels like some kind of never-ending nightmare. It's hard for me to do literally everything, I absolutely can't work, everything is given to me with great effort. Yesterday I tried to sit down to work on a text, instead of my usual five pages I couldn't write even one. It's very stressful for me, I'm not used to losing the ability to work so much. Right now I don't know how to get it back. I'm trying to do something, but I can't do anything at all. I can barely cook, at least that's good.
Today I want to try to go to the gym so that I don't completely lose my training time, but I don't know how long I can last there. I hope that it will be at least two hours. Because I already have a subscription paid for and I don't want to lose my training time. But it's very hard for me to move and it's very difficult. I hope I'll be able to come to my senses a little over the weekend. I will start working again, because I really need it.
If I had someone who could support me, it might be a little easier, but I don't have that opportunity now, so I have to cope with everything on my own. It's very difficult, but what can I do. The main thing now is to get to a state where I can work on texts again, that's the most important thing.
I'll try to focus as much as possible on getting better.
Have a great day, everyone!
