Hi, guys!
Another day has passed, and I'm still trying to get out of my depressive hole. Sometimes my emotions attack me so much that I can't breathe, it's a nightmare, it's not clear where to escape from them, but I try to somehow control myself. Now I've also added a diet, and this also does not add to my good mood, but I need to somehow get myself in shape.
This week I have already made the final decision to show up for all the training sessions, especially since yesterday they told me that otherwise they would take my pole, and I don't need that at all. Of course, I don't have enough strength for this yet, and besides, it's very easy to write something like this in the plan, and then it's very difficult to implement in practice, but it's okay, we'll try somehow. Otherwise, nothing will work out.
I need to start writing the second volume, but I still have problems even with the plan. The devil knows what's going on. I understand that I need to take a global break from work, but I can't do it yet. I want to finish the first volume, but it doesn't end because the beta comments are still coming in, and it's hard for me not to react to them. Especially since I have to send the manuscript to the publisher soon. And every day some horror stories happen, and I'm getting even more scared, will I be able to get published at all.
But it's okay, I've already started down this road and plan to go all the way. I hope I can do it. And tomorrow I'll definitely get to both training sessions, because I have no other options. I'm starting to feel strong enough to go back to gymnastics too, but I need to be patient with that a little longer. I think I'll wait another two weeks, just in time to save up a little more money to pay for the training.
And today I'll probably do a full-time job of editing, because I need to calm my anxiety. I hope Etol will help.
Have a great day everyone!
