We are not strangers brother. We were together bamidbar, and so it is now. ^~
I don't know if you just want ears listening, or tongues talking, but if it's the latter, then the 6 short readings this week (Shelach Lecha) from dailyzohar all seem relevant to the feelings you are sharing.
https://dailyzohar.com/daily-zohar-2754/
https://dailyzohar.com/daily-zohar-2755/
https://dailyzohar.com/daily-zohar-2756/
https://dailyzohar.com/daily-zohar-2757/
https://dailyzohar.com/daily-zohar-2758/
https://dailyzohar.com/daily-zohar-2759/
See you there, and let's make a good report together!!