BETTER GET USED TO THIS NO MAKE UP FACE.... IM TOO TIRED TO DO IT FOR MUCH LONGER....
Going through the level of pain... "why do I move if I'm going to hurt?", because Id hurt sitting up at home. Ive noticed things like putting on make up, which I never used to do; then became really bored and started wearing it. Im tired though. I feel like a right handed pitcher with not a pitch left in me to save my life.
The thing weighing on my mind lately. You know I did a periscope stream and while I got caught up talking about who I'd like to have lunch with. I said Nikola Tesla but as the conversation went through its natural course, like Edison and Tesla wanting to give it to us free and someone said something that blew my mind. They said :
yup. All those frequencies that are causing odd things to humans
Then it hit me. You know those perspectives things I keep bringing up..Its different when your forced to stop moving but something about it makes you understand perspective in a different deeper way.
I It doesn't matter who did what, we are concentrating on the wrong part. The controversy and not the actual cause. What its doing to the birds, bees, trees...
Like Elon Musk and his Tweet the other day. Maybe we don't have a choice. It doesn't matter who did what, what matters is how its effecting us.
If you watch my streams you know I talk a lot about perspectives and life; overall growth. Its so easy to get lost in the frequencies too. I mean haven'tyou ever seen how great you feel when you get far away enough to loose service. Yes, first hour you're bitching but once you get over it and become present, you realize how much things like noise, light, frequency pollution; they block your thoughts.
So I just got away. Sat by the water and grabbed some sun rays. The appointment went well. They ordered more comphrensive MRI imaging of the ball and socket of the hip. Blood cots were not present!!! So I can travel being that it is extremely uncomfortable though.... hopefully flights are cheap I can get a straight shot there. I always do so should not be an issue. Atleast a week. See my family. Ok maybe two weeks but after all imaging is done. Then Ive got a network of family and friends that can grab me from the airport. Maybe I do deserve a little fun vacation. Health first though.
So pistachios and ice and it will be ok. Life is a revolving door of growing lessions. Sometimes thats learning things through pain, or learning people are just here to help touch your life it a way then you move on. Life sends you a different path. You cant measure life by the bad things that happen to you. You just got to try to see what good it brought you.
Alot of people think Im an extravert and I kinda am; in the same token Im kinda not. Always in the middle. Its like the forst half of my life I was this different person and now like a coin; flip to the other side and so many details to unfold. Life is a pretty nice journey. This little girl needs a vacation and an adventure. Prontรฒ . So we do have some choices. Dont let yours pass you by either. Health first but dammit then go home...one big f@#%^## hug. A running theme i need in my life. Lololol
The universe is an extremly complicated thing. Sometimes I think if I could just dig in, learn and understand more I would be in a better "place"... Happiness is great but a friend once explained to me that the only people that are happy all the time are clowns! Simple is good, really good. For a while I had a nice rhythm. I would wake up 1/2 earlier than usual and empty my thought on paper. The pen wouldn't leave the paper for at least 20min... I always started with a gratitude list... as time went by my gratitude list became the exact same every morning.. I came to the realization that every morning I had everything I ever needed. I was whole,complete and it was all very simple.Every day was then an adventure, a journey into the unknown.. Another friend once told me that wherever I go, I bring myself with me.... I have had the formula all wrong for so Long. You see I thought it was Have-Do-Be but the truth that has been revealed is Be-Do-Have. Ie. If I just had some money I would have time to create and then I would be succesful. BUT, I am authentic and I create and I need nothing.
We'll miss every face you make :P, health is wealth, heal up, rest up! Time for you to digitally detox
Haaaa. Ill be around just not alot. I get out every day to see the sun. Its just getting harder, pain ful. I do what i can. But i feel it. This is the calm before the storm.
I think the fact that you still not letting it get the better of you is a win! Miss your faces too!
Miss ya bud. I hope youve been ok.
I've noticed how being away from a connection often gets replaced with something more natural and less distracting. It becomes far easier to see the something in all of the nothingness.