Content-ness (I think I made a new word)

There was this feeling that rushed over me when I woke up Friday morning.

Friday was the day that I took off between my old job and my new job. Even having that day off was kind of funny, because I don’t really see the reason to take off a bunch of time between jobs. It was a common question that many people asked me, “Are you taking any time off before you start your new job?” Why would I do that?

I have read articles on why it is a great idea to take time off inbetween, but I already 2 vacations coming up VERY soon, so it wasn't best for me.

I took the Friday off because I REALLY didn’t want to deal with the chaos Friday holds on the unit I used to work on. It is just stupid busy. No one understands why it sucks so bad. I just opted out of it so I didn’t go out on a frustrated note.
So, I wake up on Friday and I just feel so content. Almost as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I am free. I know this sounds a little ridiculous and flowery, but it TRULY is how I felt.

This was such a great way to start my long weekend and it really helped with the long day my daughter and I planned together. And, despite how many people thought I should have taken more time off in-between, I felt like it was just enough. There was no reason (for me) to have any extra days to sleep in or stay at home all day when I was excited to start my new position.
Feeling so content was not necessarily a NEW feeling, but not a regular one. And maybe Friday’s feeling was more freedom than content-ness, but there was still some of that in there.

This content feeling was like peace falling over me, giving my extra calm and grace to get through the day. And this has continued since then! Despite not getting my ‘new’ bedtime locked in yet, I wake up tired, but content. Happy. I am very happy with the choice I made to change jobs and give my everyday life more regularity. This job comes with more responsibility, but not too much stress. I even come home happy, even if I have had some frustrations at work. It probably has something to do with being able to see my family more, but it still equates to content-ness.

Sometimes people think of being ‘content’ as settling or feeling a middle emotion. Content is not viewed as ‘overjoyed’ or ‘amazing', but just ok. I don’t think of it this way. I believe that it’s much more than that and can only be measured by each individual person. My level of content will certainly be different than yours.

Me feeling content is almost a miracle. That’s pretty extreme, but true. I am a pretty happy person and many things bring me joy, excitement, smiles, ect. But for me, this content feeling means I have finally found a place in life with some normalcy and less stress (I grew up and have lived with a lot of stress). I’m so used to stress and having to manage a weird work schedule. Now, I work the same hours every day, each week. This is boring to some, but such a gift to me. I don’t have to doubt where and when I am supposed to be somewhere, it’s all the same now.

Lastly, let me again say that not everyone will experience this the same. Maybe you have a certain portion of your life that is content and the rest is not. Or, you could have an overall feeling of content-ness (like me), but still have some unfulfilled things in your life that could bring you up to the ‘content-ness maintaining level’ or something like that.

I really like this feeling. I am trying really hard to enjoy it to the fullest and not think anything bad is coming. Maybe this is just a pause and break from craziness I am used to, but life is so much better and easier to manage now. I can honestly tell people I am content with my life right now for the first time in forever years.

Until next time, friends.-the RealPositiveGirl