Today is the worst day. I detest payday because it brings with it pain, suffering and misery. What is the point of working 10 hours a day Monday to Friday, the entire month, only to receive your salary and have it disappear on the second day of the new month? It is actually so depressing to live in such a manner. When they employed are called slaves I understand the comparison between the two clearly.
When I first started working, before I got into debt, a much older colleague of mine told me that during the month is the best time of the month but when it comes to month end payday that is when we are overcome depression and heartache. I did not understand him at the time but now I fully comprehend his sentiment in that regard. It is painful to work for nothing.
We live in a world and in a society that promotes living life in debt. Owing banks thousands of rands and thousands of dollars has become a norm in a normal functioning society. We have become accustomed to such a life that it would considered extremely strange and frowned upon if one were to live without debt. The first thing that would be assumed would be that you are doing something illegal.The second assumption would be that you have inherited a large sum of money from a wealthy dead relative and know you are sponging off your inheritance to live life. But in truth it would be that you have actually chosen to be financially savvy and live within your means instead of choosing to live beyond them and in so doing drown yourself in debt.
I wish that I had learnt about importance of living Within your means when I first started working. But I come from a poor socioeconomic background. I have never experienced handling money responsibly for I have never experienced such in my life. This in itself is NOT an excuse however because I have seen the anguish brought upon by debt and learnt through observation of my family to stay away from it. For that I should have been more responsible with my money and my savings. For some reason I chose to ignore my better judgement and now I find myself neck deep in debt. Now that I look back it's all foolishness really. I never needed to take out a single loan but for reasons that are baffling to me I did. One loan led to other loan which led to another loan until I found myself in this predicament.
It is night right now and things always seem darkest at night 
but the morning always comes, the sun always rises and brings forth a new day and a new beginning. There is a song in my country, a ZULU gospel song that I listen to every single day on my way to work. The lyrics say “Jesus always comes in the morning when the darkness has thought that it has claimed victory over you. But Jesus comes in the morning to give you renewed strength to carry on.”
Yes it is night right now but the morning will come as it always comes. It will come and the dawn of the new light will give me renewed strength and I shall persevere.In Jesus name amen.
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A VERY LONG DAY I HAD
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I once remember going with a friend on her payday, going to everywhere where she had bills and owed money. I vowed that wouldn't be me, but a lass a few years later I was doing the equalivent but only online, making sure that all my bills were paid and not doing what all the money gurus say, pay yourself first
It seems like a pipe dream doesn't it, the concept of paying yourself first? What is it about life leads many of us to the same bottomless pit of financial darkness though?