The truth is that your faith is rewarded, because there is no mandatory replay button on your life. What has been is over, and what will be is entirely up to you to receive as you will. You are completely free to embrace every present moment with joy as it comes. Do not fear falling short of that vision, as visions aren't reality, after all.
'The past is history. The future's a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why they call it the present.'--Eleanore Roosevelt