Metaphors are powerful, my friend. You use some really strong ones to explain your reality. Try playing with that and see where it takes you.
I used to see life as a battle and it was. Now I see it as a fun game and it is. I used to see others as enemies and they were. Now I see them as reflections and they are :-)
I see you think like I do. He knows more in his subconscious than his conscious. Awakened can see this.