I am tired of trying. I am tired of fighting this fight alone. I am so fed up with not having a job and not being able to find a job. I am tired of not getting any help. I am sick of living on shut off notice to the next. My internet and phone will be shut off in thirteen days. My electric will be shut off right around the same time. I will most likely receive an eviction notice from the city next week and since I cannot afford to move my house I will lose that also.
I have not been able to switch the title on my truck and I have been driving it with no plates and no insurance. Trying to find a job with employers that cannot be bothered to hire me. They cannot even tell me why. I call them I have stopped in and nothing.
The never ending saga that is my life is nothing but torture. Every now and again things will look up and then it will become darker than it was before. I do not know what to do. I am spinning out of control and lost in my own head. All I want to do is make it back to my family but i cannot even afford to survive much less live. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. Sometimes I just wish it would be over with already. I honestly cannot even understand how I have withstood it for this long. I have nothing left to give. I am broken. Life is for the living and I am dead inside. I am out of options and out of luck. I keep putting one foot in front of the other on this road to nowhere and progress does not happen. There is no light at the end of this tunnel just desolation and loneliness. Soon I will have no power and no way to communicate with the world. Soon I will have no roof over my head. I am too old for this shit. Too old and my body is too broken. My mind is on its last legs and now I will become officially a waste of skin. A waste of oxygen on a planet that doesn't want me to survive. So be it.
Hello whenhowwho ,
Please call this number: 1-800-273-8255.
I recently went through feeling like this. Your life is valuable and means something to people you don't even know!
Thanks for that. It will not help the situation though.
It may not but it's definitely worth a shot, please
May you keep going and life gets better for you soon:) though it does seem bad now.