Perfect — Hive

Perfect

I hate being called 'the perfect one' or 'the future of the family' haha even 'the favorite child'. I hate being called that, also the fact I have no right in making my own decisions or opinions. my entire family is messed up in so many ways, my dad's siblings and him have this sort of competition of who has the better child since none of them are close to being perfect, so they try to get their kids to be perfect. last dinner that we we're all together (which was about 5 years ago since our family is in kind of war right now) but I remember clearly my aunt (my dads sister), Lucy (I'm using fake names for everyone) and uncle Frank competing which child had better grades or was better at soccer. of course everyone thinks it's pretty normal but when us kids would mess up our parents would look at us with a face a disappointment, and believe me, I received a lot of those faces from my dad. later on in the years I began being an A honor roll student and began receiving medals at competitions, and my dad would show that off all the time. you would have expected me to be happy, I hated it so much. he wasn't happy of my success, he was only happy that he had something to show off at his siblings. now that I'm older every time I hear something about me being perfect I want to scream, I'm so sick of hearing that, because now I am expected to do 100% and one screw up in any way I will receive that disappointed face that makes me hate myself more than ever...![