To be honest I wasn’t and still am not sold on working for a boss, but at the time I had no choice - work or loose my house. In a way it was a good step. Work brought back a routine to my life and at first it was very fulfilling and I felt very appreciated. Things changed in that year since I started, but along the way I found many opportunities to heal deeper through meeting new challenges and overcoming them I had to reach deeper and heal more. I had a work pattern for years where I’d meet someone who triggered me and as a result I’d leave to another company and after a while get into the same situation again. This was happening for years and when it happened here I wrote my resignation at first and then sat down and thought about it. I finally had a position where I only work 4 days a week and it’s very close to home and I wanted to leave cause I couldn’t get on with the new boss. I decided not to leave and change myself instead and eventually it worked. I’m getting on really well with him now.
There are other things that bother me now, but it is mainly to do with me again. My low moods and health issues affected my performance at work. I often get lethargic and struggle to focus. I start doubting my memory. Then again I have a few better days and I’m flying through my work loads, which tells me the issues are inside me and again I need to reach deeper to heal.
Having long holiday right now is also telling me the same - I have not much to do, just a few appointments and shopping and I have all days to write and do other things I tell myself I don’t do at home because I work and don’t have time, but clearly that’s not the reason. I still feel low and lethargic and all I wanna do is sleep and I rarely write at all. I know I’m somehow blocking my inner energy flow and I need to find ways to heal and deal with myself.
Whichever way you decide to proceed, I’m sure you will find the way. Looking around and talking with current and old friends, many people seems to be struggling with similar issues.
Anxiety and fear for example were things that didn’t affect me in the past, but have been very present in my life this year. I went to a Polish book store yesterday and right in front of me was a special edition of psychology magazine dedicated to these topics alone. I don’t know if it never was a thing in the past or we just didn’t talk about it, but now it is a front page of everything, which indicates that huge amount of population is struggling with their mental health in one way or another.
What you do by writing openly about your issues and ways you have found to deal with them is a very important work and I hope you’ll find a way of continuing to do it 💙
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Wow!
A whole book from you :D
My eyes are burnt out from making some necessary noise on my least favourite platform 🙄
Back here full time asap. And I'm saving this until I can give you my full attention :D
Thank you for your amazing connection and time.
I'll be back to answer in full! 😎
Sometimes the book flows out of me. Not very often, but I !love it when it happens.
Take your time, you know I’m easy 😘💙🎄
The best folks are
You! 🥰😘
Thanks Nicky! Hope you’re having a peaceful Christmas 🎄 😘💙
Lots of napping and chilling.
All good. It's necessary sometimes.
Hope you're getting some sunshine ❤️
Same here Nicky! I slept SO much. Hibernation in full swing this xmas 🎅🎄😁😂
And now on the last stretch on my journey back home. It was smooth as never 😂
Oh. Me too. Sleep abounds 👀
And I don't even feel bad.
I don't think many jkunreys were go as planned 🤔
Glad you made it home. Sending love always ❤️🥰