Don't take this the wrong way, but how long have you been at this Caitlin? What we are dealing with started back in the early 1990s . . . and basically involves the corruption and collapse of a social system, so very high stakes and very long term . . . You develop a thicker skin over time, but during the same time the social environment only becomes more toxic the closer we get to the inevitable collapse. You're either in for the long haul, or you cut your losses somewhere along the line and perhaps save your sanity and the sanity of your loved ones, and bail out . . . that more and more people see what some of us have seen for a long time is not really an indication that things are getting better, that there's hope, but rather that the rot and collapse have only become ever more obvious . . .
The Deep State, Cheneyism, "the Borg", whatever you wish to call it, dominates the political dialogue in the US and whereever US political culture holds sway, represents and frames it in ways that support the continuance of the status quo. If you disturb that you become a target . . . Also that some of the most rabid Cheneyite stooges/useful idiots are on the far left should not be surprising . . .