I feel your pain. Take a break for a day or two. Enjoy some sunshine. Have a butterfly land on your shoulder. Then go back to hitting up Indeed. I try to space out my applications to keep my sanity. How long you been searching?
I feel your pain. Take a break for a day or two. Enjoy some sunshine. Have a butterfly land on your shoulder. Then go back to hitting up Indeed. I try to space out my applications to keep my sanity. How long you been searching?
Job hiring season where I’m applying is September and April, and the whole process starts months before. So I’ve been waiting for late October when everyone starts accepting applications for April but trying to find something before that if I can.
I am in denial about the fact that I’m searching for a job hahaha
Interesting, I quit my last job because I was miserable, but here I am a year later looking for work because the money ran out. Since then, all the effort I put in to improve my mental, physical, and emotional health makes working at a job not seem all that bad anymore. I realized it was me allowing misery to take hold (and sometimes even seeking it out). I don't want to work for someone the rest of my life, but I know I can build my projects on the side while I raise some capital and deflect all water cooler talk in the meantime. Good luck, maing!
Wow, we are really in the same position. I also see working as a chance to test my growth, to see how much I've changed these past 5 years. You are amazing to have done it in 1 year...or perhaps I was just so damn messed up!
Thanks! But I'm by no means healthy, I'm just healthier than I've ever been. This is going to be a lifelong process. I catch myself falling into spirals and immediately pull myself out before I fall too far, as with anything you get better with practice. A big part of the process was literally resetting everything. No drugs, no junk food, full sleep, exercise daily, no distractions or bad habits, and searching patiently with what I was left with, which was me. Center myself then ask the tough questions like wtf do I want to do with my time, why are my reactions so irrational, why do I do the things I do, etc. It's almost like fapping before making relationship decisions. From there you identify your values and subsequent identity and build off of a platform of truth, YOUR truth. It's probably the hardest thing I've ever done, but I'm so glad I took the time off.
The last bits of it for me are meditation and mindfulness, I suck at both, but again need to practice to focus on living in the moment and enjoying the journey, not so much ignoring what's important to reach some arbitrary goal.
I hope you find inner peace, I commend you on all the progress you made, it's no easy feat.