I'm truly sorry to hear that. Pets are family and when they go... it just creates a void.
I remember when I was in grad school our dog died, and I was crying during enrollment. I didn't care if I looked miserable because I really was! He was our dog and was with me when the parental unit was away, so he was my companion and looked after me. Sometimes I felt guilty because I didn't feel like I had done enough.
It was the same with my favorite cat before, when he was dying (of old age) I really couldn't go to work because I didn't want to miss him, so I stayed beside him until the end. He said 'meow' and purred when I petted him for the last time.
There, we're both crying! I only take solace that all pets go to heaven and are watching over us humans.
Cheer up @simplymike! They are around 😢😊
Thanks for understanding, @titajuls.