I am just like you then, I also had a disaster first week this month. But i am recovering slowly. I am currently at #126 . I only focus on the crypto market side though.
I see the sustainability coming from commercial partnerships and the sale of intellectual properties. They impress me with their constant development of interesting questions.
Last night also worked me over and I fell from 72% for the month to 70% acc. So its ebb and flow over here :D
It's fascinating to hear. Someday i will have to start following traditional assets and throw myself into the volcano as well ^^