I recognize myself in what you say about yourself. I went a similar way and I reconciled with my mother before she died two years ago. Already some time before her death. Such a beautiful gesture that you have prepared here for your mother. I am happy to be shown this example and congratulate you on the wisdom you have acquired.
When you start to think about yourself and life and really wonder how it comes to being alive, it becomes very strange. Quite odd. As a teenager this thought struck me and every now and then I have this very weird impression of existence. But it is the mysticism of life that cannot be explained and the secret is that we will never fathom. If we did it, it would probably all be over in one fell swoop and a new Big Bang would have to be there for the game to start all over again. The magic of the inexplicable is given by birth and death. If we did not die and new children were born who would always remind us older people that life is an exciting mystery, we would soon wish that immortality would not please be.
Thank you again. A joy to read such here.
What a beautiful comment ;_; I really appreciate your contribution as it adds so greatly to my post. I've not much to say, I'm sincerely happy that someone has found meaning in my words, and that we can account that the roads we go through are not all that different in the end.
So sorry about your loss, but at the same time glad to read that you could reconcile with her before it was too late. Grudges with the dead are a heavy burden, and do well to nobody.
Thanks for reading and for such a wholesome comment :}
Don't be sorry for my loss. I have my mom in vivid memory. She taught me so much through her presence and role modeling that I cannot lose her. She became 86 and had lots of time to establish herself in her children's hearts. I think almost every day of her and only rarely I miss her that it hurts. Mostly, I do not. She was for me a shining star. She went through many many challenges throughout her life.
She received only 4 years of school education. That made her a very special person as she was not so self concsious of everything. Missed that whole Freudian stuff and never had a concept of blaming her parents. LOL! Though of course, she had a dark side as well. It was her lose tongue once in a while which made her looking ghastly. But then she made me laugh that I almost had to pee!
One sentence: "Frieda loads and Oswald shoots."
Which is a reference towards my aunt and uncle. He was a very loud and preaching-type guy. But my mom saw the female influence as a silent grey figure behind him: his wife. She could describe a very complex situation in one simple sentence. Quite a skill that was. The old proverbs often make me laugh.
Bye for now:)