So, how are you?
Well, English is not my native language, so I may have misunderstood something. I like to think of Hive as a small obligation, or something to be taken more seriously than web2 networks, and I say this in the sense that I am required to maintain a minimum number of publications. Mine are texts, reflections, opinion pieces. Occasionally about games.
Along these lines, I would like to suggest that you join the HiveLearners community to be "required" twice a week to publish on a specific topic. Could this help? For me, it worked.
Furthermore, and now I am speaking with great authority, this reflection of yours (if I can call it that) would be very well received by the FreeCompliments community, and for that I would like to invite you to join us. The community works on several fronts and I can explain it to you in more detail if you are interested. Our team of mental health ambassadors should be stopping by soon.
I wish you light for all your dark moments!
While I'm glad that all those initiatives exist and I appreciate you for pointing me in their direction, I'm not really looking for inspiration or motivation to post. I don't have the time to make a commitment to posting regularly and this is not anybody's problem to solve. This was simply an exercise to address my procrastination by facing whatever feelings & thoughts come up when I pause to question myself on it. I think the procrastination happens as a consequence of trying to ignore them and just moving on, but it still ends up bothering me in the back of my mind.
A big reason for the stress is probably that I got too immersed back in the day when I was on STEEM and I never succeeded in finding a healthy balance of being online & offline so my mental health paid a price back then & has been much better since going cold turkey. But circumstances have changed since so the pressure to post often is off.