I hear you brother. I just gave up on the money and started focusing on making friends and engaging with people that have something to say. I find that it helps a lot with the depression.
Keep sharing things that you want to share, because you want to share them. If you don't feel like sharing them, don't. You could probably make better money joining a curation trail or something and just engaging with others. A thoughtful comment can earn you more than a post quite easily. My buddy stopped an account from plagiarizing the other day and the original content creator upvoted his comment $1.00. That's more than his posts make any day. He was just doing what was right and it worked out.
Anyways, I hope it gets better and you keep those creative juices flowing. I subscribed to your youtube channel in case you quit posting here.
Cheers