Is it ever too late to start again? Or in my case, technically, too late to just straight up start? I tried so many jobs I lost count. I tried college, and the local community college at that, and I was too young, immature, and irresponsible to follow through. I left before the end of my first semester. I entered a medical training program, but after giving birth to my daughter, my absence was "too long" and I couldn't afford to pay my now no-longer-deferred loan, in full, to complete my last module.
I am a "single mother" now, that has struggled with many obstacles, an anxiety disorder being one of them. I have left a 10 year relationship because I was being neglected, held back, and abused. And my daughter was negatively being affected and that was what ultimately helped seal my decision to leave. Staying together for the kids is the worst concept in history. It was one of the hardest things I've done. I have faced financial difficulties that caused plenty of undue stress. I also suffer from seizures. And now my most recent medical endeavor, my urethral diverticulum and the upcoming surgery to treat it.
So now I am at a crossroads. Ready to grab the metaphorical bull by the horns and work my ass off to get where I want. I was always very intelligent, and very kindness-oriented. However, due to what I now recognize as me having wasted my high potential in my younger years, I found myself unsure of my future and ability to care for my family and provide for my daughter. And having faced the challenges I have, I have spent countless hours soul searching. And now here I am, with a clear, focused path in mind. At 29 years old. Although it took me a bit longer than most to find my path, i've never been more committed, determined, or ready to pursue my destiny. I want to be able to help the world and help be a part of the change in it.
I am extremely hard-working, empathetic, and compassionate. I consider myself reliable. But the work-related problems I have had in the past were mostly my being unhappy with monotony, with such repetition and tasks requiring little thought or effort, that it feels like you're not truly helping very much, and almost like you are just coasting through life. Zero challenge or use of my intellect. For lack of a better phrase... * sheer utter boredom*. I dont fit in with basic cookie-cutter walks of life. I find my happiness in being around, talking and listening to, and helping people.
Ultimately, my goal is to obtain, at the least, a BA in Psychology or Social Sciences with a concentration on human services. I also dabble with the idea of pursuing a career helping victims of domestic violence, as I have been a victim of domestic violence myself in the past. I want to be able to feel fulfilled and happy in my career as well as to be able to support my family proudly and provide as a proper mother should for her child. And I want to help others get to their happiness and security as well. While still having time to be able to live, and have a quality life with my family. I don't want to work dead-end jobs with ridiculous hours and salary. And I also want to show my daughter, as well as others, it's never too late to start taking control of your future. And to become a strong, independent woman.
Although I have obstacles, and it may take longer to get to my goal than others without those obstacles, my fire and passion burn deep enough to see me through.
I have dedicated the last few weeks while being slightly incapacitated from my health issues to plotting a course of action to make MY future... well, my future. First, I am utilizing all department of labor resources I have found. Resumé assistance, career courses I'm eligible for to take free of cost, volunteer opportunities within the human services community, free computer courses to expand my computer knowledge and efficiency. I also have an extremely supportive boyfriend that helps encourage me and helps me grow as a person every day. He does everything with our family's best interest in mind. I'm grateful to have such a real man standing next to me. We also are more than happy with the progress of all our crypto endeavors. I have so much faith in that playing a major part of our future and I love that.
After utilizing all these opportunities to use as stepping stones, or if I can handle it somehow mentally, and financially, simultaneously with any of the prior mentioned things, I hope to end up officially enrolled for college courses. And once I earn a degree, all my hard work, stepping stones, and opportunities I utilized will help to ultimately make me an even more qualified candidate for the position I choose to pursue.
Life is really starting to look up, regardless of my current circumstances. Life is what you make it, and you see what you choose to look at. And I am paving way for an amazing future, and what I see is all the wonderful things surrounding me to help me get to that. And I'm damn sure gonna make every effort to enjoy the ride.