Thank you @practicalthought. I feel that this is something that comes up continuously in my life, especially in terms of personal economics. Your right. I panic and give away my services for less than they are worth. I think I am frightened to appear arrogant and in that, don't even appear confident. It's a very difficult conundrum but it keeps appearing over and over in my life and I guess that unless I conquer that hurdle, it's going to keep happening to me over and over.
Interestingly, I applied for a permaculture writing position and got it which has given me the chance to pursue something I am far more passionate about. Although it is very part-time, that part-time can help me to fill the gaps as I build a portfolio to prove my worth more solidly, even if that's just to myself.
Thanks for the advice. I really appreciate it.
I agree with that!
I might add - The steps prior to that is critical:
Your sense of self-worth and frequent self-assessment and inventory.
What is that?
The exact things that are in your rant here, but more methodical and proactive - do this regularly and not wait till you are in an emotional state like this.
A classic and must read book -
How to Sell Yourself by Joe Girard
A pdf summary:
http://www.educationalservice.net/ebooks/ebooks-001/eseb20090503_HOW-TO-SELL%20.pdf
All the best!