I came to the blog to see if you posted the vlog here about you getting some rest but you did not and went to bed, which is good LOL.
I had said on that YT video hoping to encourage you:
TBH, you have to look after yourself and really man, there has been nothing wrong with any of your content, 18 mths ago, and you felt you had to perform to other peoples' standards, which you admitted was not working for you, months ago as you made the changes back to your regular format. You have consistently good content, always had, always will. Get your rest, take a day or 2 off, I know you had some half-vacation time and trips but then, you were doing this stuff anyways. We want you to be well.