I don't know what's happened to you to get to this point but it's definitely not good. However, no matter how disappointed you are, there's always hope and there's a way.
I see you have been posting exclusively in BDCommunity till now and you posted this one on your blog, instead of a community. You may want to try to join a few communities as I think it could not only give your post more exposure, but you can meet people with similar problems and maybe it can help you get better, make the next step. I would suggest Emotions and Feelings and Ladies of Hive. Sometimes talking to complete strangers can be much more easier.
I hope you get better soon and also let me know if you need any help.
Wow! Thank you so much for your kind words ! It means a lot to me! And thank you for your suggestions. I'm having so much problem in my life right now. Glad I'm back on hive . Nice to meet you !
Nice to meet you too. I'm sorry to hear you're having a lot of problems, but as I said, sometimes talking to unknown people can help a lot. So instead of isolating yourself, please make an effort and try to forget your problems or find a solution by talking to others. Hive is a great platform, you'll see :)