Blake, I got weirded out there too, for quite awhile, and had to detach myself from it all. It was just too overwhelming for me. So I stepped back, let my emotions and neurotransmitters quiet down, and dipped my toes back in the pond. I decided not to disengage - when we disengage, they win.
And trust me, I'm not making a judgement about this. You gotta do what you need to do to take care of yourself, brother.
There are some great people, amazing, dedicated people involved in that open source research investigation. I found that my greatest talented isn't researching for them - I was more part cheering section, part smart-ass, part Nancy Drew. Letting other people know about what's going on is probably a better role for me.
Thank you for stopping by, and it's nice to meet you! Joan