It is just disheartening that when I get up although some of the pains are gone because I am taking my parathyroid medicine, the stiffness, pains, and weakness is still there. So I am really sad to realize that I am no longer like I was before and that this situation may not get better at all.
But the best thing to with this situation that I am into is to just deal with it and do whatever it takes just to make myself feel better which is precisely what I am doing right now. So I am working day and night to achieve just that and it is not an easy task because time is not really on my side.
I have the fifty-fifty ratio desire to live and to die. To live because I just want to witness the light of another day because I am waiting for one thing the coming of the Lord Jesus Christ and reign with him in the next thousand years. I also desire to live because I always wanted to at least feel normal again and I think there is nothing wrong with that.
But when I am really in an eye-popping agony I just wanted to die and I would accept with no hard feelings if my spirit would return to God today it is still okay although it will be just a disappointment that I didn't achieve what I wanted to accomplish.
Life is like a flower, it is beautiful but it will always come a time that a flower will wither down and die and other flowers will begin after that and that is the reality that I have to accept because no one lives forever.
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You know what makes you more attractive to me than any other man I have seen or known? Your love for the Lord. Your pure heart. Your goodness. Your kindness. Your honesty. And by the way you have handsome eyes. I just had to say that. It was on my mind. Also I love seeing these updates because they encourage me and give me inspiration. Also you remind me of the coming of Jesus and that gives me reassurance that no matter what this lives gives us it will all fade away anyhow. We should not worry too much because it will pass. We should focus on the Lord. Just like the men in the boat during the storm. When the Lord walked on water, and when Peter took his eyes off of Jesus he began to drown. We should do the same. We must focus on Him. He is the only way any of us will get through this storm we all know as life. Talk soon my good friend @cryptopie
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ps do you know what we will do after the 1000 years? I always wonder about it hehe also I am sure you know of this scripture but I want to share it in case others have not seen.
Matthew 14:22-33
Jesus Walks on the Water
22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.
25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 “Come,” he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
That is really a sweet comment!
Hope his situation will continue. God bless you.
Great to see you, my friend. Keep on keeping on. You inspire me!