I'm glad you're back @inquiringtimes, I really enjoy reading your research.
About what you wrote, the truth is that you are very hard on yourself, but I see that you are clear on what you were and what you want to become, the truth is that Steemit is the best way to start socializing and becoming that sociable person that you were not or what scared you to be.
Anyway, here we are your followers to support you and keep reading you and personally if you need me, you know how to find me ;)
Thanks, dear. <3