It's sad @ogoowinner, it's always sad.
The loss of a dear one is never easy, it actually never really heals with time-like a scab over a wound, it bleeds afresh when opened.
All you have to do is to remember what your uncle had always wanted for you and be that person. Nothing will make him happier.
The pain will grow dull my dear, sometime, somehow.
Jide obi gi aka, and don't forget God.