Actually I've been struggling a lot with a few things like the gaming addiction.. in this stressful environment I started playing games as stress relief but lately I noticed that I play way too seriously. Leading me into more stress.
I am being completely honest here I've been trying to implement a technique where I take a break from work and meditate but it feels awkward and this awkwardness overwhelms the effect of meditation.. but I do wanna try this.
What I am saying is that when it's a habit you don't care about the people or anyone around infact you yourself wouldn't be aware but the action is taken and completed.
I think you lack a real belief that things can get better if you work at it. If you really believe they can and you give yourself what you need, whether it’s playing games or meditation, you feel better afterwards.
If you need some energy, you are always welcome to come find me