It's been almost 2 months since I left my job in Seychelles. I'm thankful enough that I survive the long and tiring flight going back to my homeland. I thought everything will be alright but it seems that looking back to all hardship and loneliness depression keep hunting me. I've been battling anxiety meeting up with new people and visiting new places. Thinking of what opportunity I've lost not only for me but for my family as well. Looking ahead of what may future will become makes me want to wake up anymore. I know that God is real, He helped me so many times in my life. What I'm hoping for, is to have the characters of God's servant David, who can pray and cry out like a child for Him. I cannot see any brightness in this world. Still holding on and waiting for God's promise land.